I Hate This Time of Year

I'm confused as to how my heart is supposed to work and how I'm supposed to feel. I met someone who very much seems to accept me for who I am (diagnoses and neuroses included), but I know I have to keep my distance for both our sakes for a lot of really complex reasons, which we've already discussed. Either it could go really, really well...or really, really badly. There is no middle ground, regardless of what either of us are feeling.

It's been said that attraction isn't a choice. They weren't kidding. Maybe it's the lack of experience, maybe it's the AS...I just don't know.

And I made a point of keeping this blog on a separate account, but now it's attached to my other accounts, which means that people that I'm not ready to tell about my "condition" have easy access. Oops.

Happy Valentine's Day.